Upset

So, it seems I've upset a few people with my last post (had a few emails waiting for me today). I just can't win! I figured writing this on my own blog, where I can basically say anything, I'd be safe, as it is a place for me to share my thoughts & feelings, so I don't feel like I'm going to blow up. I mean, c'mon people! I need a damn outlet! If you don't like what I have to say, then don't bother coming to my blog! Plus, I thought I'd share my feelings, so that maybe someone who has felt the same way, could share with me how they deal with it.

Now, I realize that not all friends are going to have the exact same interests, & that makes things interesting & different so people don't get bored with each other. I just feel that I may not have ENOUGH in common with some people to keep the friendship together. And that hurts, because I truly like these people. I just don't know what to do anymore. I guess I'm damned if I do & damned if I don't. Whatever. FML.

*Jolene*

Common interests...or lack thereof...

Ever feel like you don't quite fit in with a group of friends? Like, you love them to death (and vice versa), but you only have a few things in common? No...hmm, must just be me then. I have a group of friends that are very into cosplaying, gaming, reenacting, etc. A few are even Pagan or Wiccan........I am neither. I don't really identify with any religious group, I just kind of go with the flow. That said, I do think that Paganism & Wiccanism (is that even a word?) is very interesting, and I have NO problem with my friends (and even some in my family) having that as their faith. I just feel like I don't really belong, especially when they start talking about things that have to do with their faith, or their hobbies, & I have NO clue what's going on/being talked about. That being said, I do enjoy going along with them and seeing & experiencing new things that have to do with said faith/hobby. But again, I feel like I don't belong (kind of like the "third wheel" feeling), and I feel that they can kinda sense that & don't want to have to explain things to me (with the exception of 1 or 2 people), so they'd just rather not have me be around when they are doing that sort of thing. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. Maybe I'm just so used to doing stuff on my own, that when I'm in a group, I don't really know what to do...I don't know. I guess I'm just scared that only having a few things in common with said friends will eventually dwindle to almost nothing in common, and I will lose some awesome people in my life. I also wonder sometimes, what they really do think of me, and my interests? Do they think it's stupid, childish, ridiculous, etc? I love my friends. I really do. I'd do anything for them. But, like I said...maybe I'm just being paranoid, or having a bad night (emotions wise), but some days, these thoughts just won't leave my  brain..........

*Jolene*

Ch ch ch changes! :)

Greetings blogosphere! :) How is everyone doing this beautiful Memorial Day weekend? I hope you all are doing great & will have tons of fun this weekend! :)

Things are finally starting to look up for me. Yesterday, I was offered a position in a training class for a new job to start on June 17th. I will be working for a call center, as a Sales & Service Representative II (I think that's what my "title" will be). I will be in training for 10 weeks, Monday-Friday, 6am-2:30pm...being a non-morning person, that is going to be interesting for me, as I'll have to get up at 4am to shower & get ready. Maybe after the 10 weeks are up though, I'll actually become a morning person. LOL! I'm looking forward to this new adventure however. I haven't worked full time in so long, nor made the kind of money I'll be making, for such a long time! Plus, my husband & I will actually be able to afford to pay for things on time again! LOL! It'll definitely be nice to have a little extra money left over again. It's definitely going to take a lot of stress off of my husbands' shoulders as well. The poor guy has been so stressed lately, and I couldn't do anything to help with it. Even though it'll still be about a month before I get a paycheck (won't get paid until the 28th) just knowing we'll have that money coming our way is helping a little bit. I'll definitely keep y'all updated on how the job goes once I begin my training. (Oh yeah, I will more than likely, stop working as a CNA after the training class is over).

Tomorrow I'm going to join some friends (including my bestie, Danielle) at Cowtown again, this time for Steampunk Day. It'll be nice to get away for the day. Plus, since I visited most of the buildings on my last trip there, I can just hang out & take some pictures for Dani. I will definitely remember the sunscreen this time however! Really don't want to get another bad sunburn like last time! LOL!

Other than that, I really don't have too much to say, as nothing really exciting has happened in my life since my last post (LOL), but I wanted to pop on here, as it's been over a month since I last wrote anything, and say hi and see how y'all are doing! Hope everyone is doing well, and again, I hope y'all have a great Memorial Day weekend! Enjoy the nice weather (if you're lucky enough to get some) & the yummy food, and the company of great friends/family! I'll post again soon, but until then, take care & stay safe!!

Later gators!

*Jolene*